Everything Is Falling Apart.If I'm gone don't, don't look for me. I'm probably in a better place. Don't wake me, my dreams are probably better than reality. I'm lost at sea on a raft that's barely floating, drifting into unknown territory.
ToxicityYou kiss me to draw the words from my mouthOh whut a sweet sin this taste is.If I slit my wrists would I bleed out red?If I died right here,Would you love me instead?
Lonely RainAs liquid drops form on everything,I look around,The whole world becomes anew,I can feel the darkness being washed from me,Slipping away drop by drop,Slowly,In this lonely rain,
A LetterIt's been a while since we've spoken; eleven months maybe? The days seem to go by, the seasons change, but it still doesn't feel the same. I'm getting better slowly, it doesn't hurt as much as it used to but I still find myself crying at night. There's someone new in my life; he's amazing, but I still feel my heart ache for something I can't have. Death is sadistic thing. It haunts you until you can't take it anymore and drains your life of happiness. Maybe in eleven more months I'll be okay again.
LostI wish I could find myself at the bottom of an empty bottle,Or the pack of cigarettes lying next to me,But it doesn't feel right without you,Nothing could ever stop this pain spreading from my chest,An ache from the deepest depths of my splintered soul,Part of me left with you,But who am I now?
Trapped TruthThe truth is, I can’t get close to anyone because I know no one will ever truly understand me. No one will take the time to understand my demons. Talk to my monsters. Soothe my raging beasts. I’m alone in my darkness and I always will be. Trapped forever and no one will ever love me.
Maybe One DayThere once was a girl, a girl and her best friend. She was madly in love with him and he never knew. It was better that way. Her, silently dying inside. Him, obliviously in love with a sin. She forced herself every day to remember that he could never love her like she did him. He remained in the dark about her love until the very end. Every sin ends one day, she wanted it to come so badly, but at the same time she didn’t. Two hearts, both intertwined, both torn. Two sides of a broken piece that one day may fit together to form a new one. Only time would tell.
I Need YouI hear your voice in the distance,But it's too far away,All I can see is darkness,All I can feel is numb,Just the intake of breath is difficult,And with each step I get nowhere,I’m lost within the darkness of my soul,Where are you when I need you most,I hear you,But with each word you’re farther away,Don’t leave me here,I can’t do this on my own,I’m fading away slowly,Please save me,Soon everything I am will be gone.
You Are Everything To MeThis is my one true moment of weakness,I'm completely vulnerable,My heart is exposed,I've been trying to tell you how I've felt,But the words just would never leave my mouth,You make the darkness I live in brighter,Your smile lights my way,Your laugh shows the path,your voice guides me through,When I'm with you,This hopeless life I lead is given meaning,I'm risking my feelings,My heart,My everything,Because you make me feel like this life is worth living,There's no one else like you,No one even compares to you,Who you are.Is the person I love,No matter the changes,Nor the time,I've always wanted you to know that,But the words would never come out.
HumanDying sun and the birth of the moon.Foxes playing in the snow and ancient memories.Receiving presents and getting drunk in the daylight.Useless criticism and sad songs.White weddings and pale funerals.Kind words and happy endings.Heartbreak, success, failure, death and happiness.A good book and life in general.Simple things like that can make you cry.And that's okay.You're not made of stone and iron,you're not a cold, heartless machine...You're just human.And that's more than okay.
I Ship UsI can not measure our lovein words, but in how tightwe hug when we finallysee each other again. Thereis starshine in your smileand I could swear that youare Aurora, wreathed inbeauty, but with less sleepingand more ass-kicking.You are kind and selfless,a true paragon of loveand a goddess of all thingsgood. where most have blood,you have eternal love.all the light in the worldis simply not enoughto express the lightyour friendship andlove bring to me.Passion and excitementexude from everythingthat you do and you pouryour heart into; everything youmake, everything you touch.When we first met, there wasn'ta doubt in my mind that Ihad found one of my soulmates,someone who could laughover puns and obsess overpokemon, someone who wouldn'tjudge me on anything I'd done.A kind soul that is therefor all to see. One that hasbeen scarred and one Iwish to protect. Everythingyou do becomes bettersimply by your being there.You are the reason I believein friends b
Disappearing Piece By PieceClosed doors.Locked doors.Memories in scars.Tears that fall unheeded,and wishes from afar.Disappear, oh Disappear.Voices in my head,I cannot entertain you.I cannot end up dead.You know that I won't stay forever,so you up the Pain.I still don't understand you,though I know what you seek to gain.You cannot have my body,it's under my control...and though you whittle away the pieces,and I'm no longer whole...I'm stronger than you think me,stronger than I know.I hurt!I hurt!Damn you Shadows!I do not want to go!I want to stay,I want to see!Please, oh please...just no!
Ocean's TouchThere is this strange comfortof being weightless in the sea.Just floating there alone and undisturbed,with your eyes closed and your mind at ease.The smell of the ocean grounds you and relaxes youwhile the gentle waves stroke your sensitive skin.You feel safe and the options and life choicesno longer torture your brain.You feel free, calm and sanefor that little period of time when nothing matters,the pressure is gone and everything is fine.The ocean's touch lingers on your exposed skin,not like a lover, but a healer.
Just A GirlShe just a broken girl thatpours her secrets into the nightin the form of melodies andthe fire that burns so bright.She's just a naive girl thatwrites random heartbreaking art andtries to keep her heart fromfalling apart.She's just a girl thattries so hard to survive in the worldfilled with two-faced people andendless inner wars that keep on burning..
i am too much and yet not enough.i.)she tells me i havethe heart of a mouse,put your ear againstmy ribs and hear thetrapped hummingbirdscrying to escape. today,my wings are slashed. thisis nothing unusual, thisis nothing different exceptit's a Tuesday and ipromised to cry onlyMondays and Thursdays.(its a good thing we both knowi only keep half my promises)ii.)we do not speak about it. but,neither do we pretend it'snot there - something tobe ignored and overlooked. sheacknowledges, salutes andmoves on; she's a soldierthat refuses to fight andi think i am glad of this.(learning to be peaceful after alifetime of war is slow going,but we're getting there.)iii.)sorry is a forbiddenword in this house. sometimesi forget this andapologise for taking upthe air. sometimes sheforgets this and apologisesfor taking up the space. onthese days, we sip blacktea whilst i thread myfingers through her hair andread. it never matters what,she just likes to hear myvoice and words take u
speak up before it's too lateit saddens me deeplyhow the differencebetween making your lifeand taking your lifeis a single letterremember the importanceof words-speak up before it's too late
Gentle EdgesDarling..be gentle with my edges,they may be sharp and rough,but they are a big part of methat made me strong when I was weak.
Goodbye, My Best StrangerThe worst way to lose a friend,Is when they become a stranger.Where they were the person who was holding your handAnd keeping you from falling off of the cliff.But they finally let goAnd as you fall away,You can see their face get smaller and smallerUntil you hit the ground and your mind goes blank.I liked the way we depended on each other.Like I wasn’t the only one who enjoyed your companyBut you liked me too.I liked the way you talked about stars.As a kid who has a bad sense of gravity,I thought you were one for a while.You definitely were as bright as a sun,And you were holding me in place,Keeping me from drifting into space.Now whenever we talk it makes me even lonelier.We were such good friends.I want you here with meAnd the miles between us are like weights on my chestThey’re crushing my lungs.But now we just make small talkThe pieces fall at our feet.The words used to fit together so perfectlyTalking to you never was a puzzle.Words came as n
ConnectionAs I fall asleep,I dream of you,The way your smile makes my heart soar,The way your words make my mind's trouble sleep,The way your soul collides with mine,As we form a connection,That stretches across time.